'Other World'

A straightforward title I gave to the other half of my life that was spent sleeping. Constant, long, and deep sleeps.

Isolation. We were stuck in our homes for about 2 years, with lockdowns changing from strict to laxed, and now it seems that we're mostly able to go anywhere now with the proper precautions. I also kinda isolated myself from everyone socially, keeping to myself, mostly talking to family, and occasionally reminding my friends I'm still alive. I can't really say whether if it was a good growing point for me or something I wanted to break free from, I still have mixed emotions about that time. What I can say is that my emotions were very unstable, and that the only consistent feeling that I felt was numbness. I used sleep as an escapism from that feeling; seeing and exploring various worlds that doesn't compare to reality, the feeling I got was a big contrast compared to when I was awake; the same cold room and unkept bed I rarely exited. It practically became part of my routine to just sleep whenever I could, doing literally nothing else.

The CRT TV used for this project was the same TV I used to watch a lot of cartoons in when I was a child. I watched as much TV as I could and even stayed up watching from early evening till early morning. The same way I used to obssess over cartoons back then, parallels the me now with sleep. The mirrors represents my brain as it tried to block away reality completely, only preferring and showing the greatness of dreaming. Me being a doll shows that I was getting too comfortable, being too reliant on escapism. The scenery I made are actually some of the many dream scenarios I wrote down for the past 2 years, though void of the story and people that were in it.

I made this project as a sort of vent, but also a message that heavily depending on escapism will just make you miserable. Reality really sucks, it's just never good most of the time. Finding ways to deal with it is understandable, hell, I encourage it, but there comes a point where you question whether what you're doing is healthy or not. I only realised earlier this year how bad it's gotten after talking to friends I haven't talked to for so long. I'm thankful for what they did, if not I probably would've reclused myself more than I ever did before.

I still don't talk a lot now and still keep to myself a lot of times, but now I've been focusing more on my interests and enjoying myself compared to before.

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Hello, I'm Angel S. Sarausad, currently 16, and a Year 4 Visual Artist student from Philippine Highschool for the Arts.

I've always loved drawing as far as I can remember. It grew to a hobby when I was in first grade when my cousin taught me how to draw simple anime girls, and my friends in gradeschool were artists like me. I grew a lot when I first came to Makiling, but got into a heavy burn out sometime in Grade 8 till early Grade 10. Got my drive back though, and I'm in my experimental phase in with mt art.

I love playing video games, especially the Elder Scrolls Series, I owe that game series a lot for giving me a ton of inspirations throughout the years, though a lot of games I played have definitely influenced me too. I also love watching VODs of a streamer named Jerma985, his streams got me through hours of making this project. Oh and I also like dreamcore and dark academia, moreso the countless playlists made in YouTube.